I suppose.

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I think theres something clearly wrong with me. Why is it that everytime some nice guy comes around I feel myself being attracted to him? PFFT. Something is wrong. I dont know. Overanalization of everything always screws me over and bites me in the ass. Kinda sad yea I know. So people say: just stop overanalyzing then. Ha. Easy for you to say.

People say that I have confidence. Many people say that I tell it like it is. My best friends say that Im not afraid to do whatever the hell I want to do. In so many cases, I suppose that they are right. Im adventurous and I just love to try new things. Even if they're scary. Or possibly life threatening LOL.

Anyway. Why is it that sometimes I feel like Im being fake? I personally consider myself to be as uhhh...not fake that I can possibly be? I dont know how to phrase that properly. But seriously. Im only fake to those that I hate and are SUPPOSED to like. But lately I just dont know. The people who matter most to me: my friends, my family and people that I generally care about; they cant even see it when I feel like shit and I just have to talk to someone. Well actually, some can tell and Im rediculously grateful for her (: *cough* 2 people actually. A&E <3

I guess what Im saying is just that. Most of the people who know me best (probably even better than I know myself). If they cant see the big act Im putting up, who can really see it. Id like people to see me for who I truely am. Yea. I can be the big ass bitch who gets in your face but really. Even I have feelings. (hard to believe for some of you, I know (:) I cant stand it when someone I care about hates me. I may act like I dont but I seriously do. Bothers the living heck out of me. If I could give less about that person then who cares if he/she hates me? :DD

I just feel like Im losing myself sometimes. Losing myself to my alternate personality that's taking over. Losing myself to the side that people assume that I am 100% of the time. Losing me to me.

Shit. How dramatic. Buhhbyee. (: <3